Sunday, August 31, 2008

it's all good

it's raining here in florida, but you know what? my dad's out of CCU, my mom's out of the hospital too.

slowly but surely.

it's really all good. thanks Big Guy. and thank you to all the people who prayed and sent support. i'm blessed.

Friday, August 22, 2008

losing my sanity

it's been a rollercoaster couple of weeks. we had both major and minor events, the most major being my dad having a heart attack last monday.

last year while we were in europe my sister and i received a call from the philippines telling us that my dad needed a bypass. we were shocked. and helpless. and totally useless. i know i felt that way.

this year i felt it again. my dad had suffered a heart attack and my mom was in shock. as soon as i heard the news i stayed very calm and collected but the feelings of shock, helplessness, and uselessness were all there. i told my other sisters very quietly so as not to incite panic.

as i am wont to do when i'm worried or scared, i go to sleep. so i slept for about 5 hours midday and by the time i woke up, my dad had woken up too. the relief was so great i almost cried, but i still ended up cooking and cooking and cooking.

every now and then we come face to face with our parents' mortality. i know i have. but it's a totally different matter when you can't be there with them. i wanted to kick things, punch somebody, scream. but i kept my head last year, and i kept my head last monday.

why is it i always manage to stay sane when i have every right to lose it?

my dad's still under observation and my mom is back to her old self. but it's all good. i have a lot to be thankful for, and i am.

and for what it's worth, i'm thankful i didn't lose my sanity.

Saturday, August 09, 2008

get your kicks...


or a gap between the teeth, most often between the two front teeth.

i have developed this nasty habit of whistling through the gap between my two front teeth. it's not of madonna proportions and i don't think the gap is even noticeable. but air whistles through it and i find myself doing it unconsciously and it irritates the hell out of me.

ugh. UGH!

Friday, August 01, 2008

what was that?

why yes, sometimes i do get crazy and dress up the babies.