Wednesday, February 13, 2013

tipping point

when you see friends and family members being abused by their spouses you end up wondering how much more they will take. specially when it comes to psychological abuse. because really, i've gone beyond my own tipping point just witnessing things.


Tuesday, February 12, 2013

downcast and dreary

woke up to a gray, rainy day.

it has been unbearably sunny the past few days, and sometimes it was more than i could take. i guess there are just some days when you want the weather to just go with your mood.

several chapters closed. there's a mood damper for you.

Sunday, February 10, 2013

missing mommy

since daddy died i had been mommy's constant companion. we slept on the same bed and i rearranged my life practically so i could be with her.

some friends asked if this seemed like a burden to me, a question which surprises me no end because i genuinely enjoy spending time with mommy. but then again, not all moms are like mommy, i guess.

mommy is just as crazy, if not crazier, as i am. we would spend hours watching tv, or playing games on our respective ipads, or just talk. we would look at each other and laugh, getting the joke immediately.

she became my travel buddy, and we flew to europe, japan, and the US together, having a blast at airport lounges and comparing notes on the travel amenities of the different airlines.

i brought her to the US last year so she can get her permanent resident status, in preparation for citizenship. but i had to go back for work early this year, leaving mommy behind with my sister.

i miss her. it has been 36 days since i left the US. it seems longer. this is the longest i have been away from her since april 2011. i guess i feel out of sorts.

thank heavens for technology. we spoke yesterday via video call. it was my nephew's 7th birthday and it was pirate themed. 



unplugging

today is the start of the chinese new year. according to their calendar, it is the year of the water snake.

i suppose it is as good a time as any to revisit my blog, particularly since i've decided to be done with facebook, twitter, and instagram. at least for now.

i am tired of social media. i'm going back to the old school way of keeping in touch. well, maybe not old school. just the regular use of a phone and email.

my current phone is quite helpful as it is an old iphone 3g that does not allow the installation of apps because its operating system is quite old. that suits my mood just fine.

who knows, maybe one of these days i'll just deactivate all my accounts altogether. we'll see.