smsrtf

i said it all here last year.

she still remains the same although i haven't seen her in a month of sundays. i end up missing her more every time i am reminded of this fact. sigh.

today is her day and she deserves a real break. :)

happy birthday smsrtf! hope to see you soon.

i wonder

how do they sleep at night?

and if i don't do anything, how will i?

another one of those "i should've stayed in bed" days

i never run red lights, even at 2 am, i yield at intersections, let pedestrians cross, follow the rules for merging traffic, and generally follow traffic rules and regulations. well, speed limits are a little tricky.

so why is it, that when i was driving on the correct lane and i had to pump my brakes a little to avoid hitting a truck in front of me and at the same time signal left and actually move left, that 2 mmda guys happen to be staring smack at me? i got flagged for "illegally changing lanes" and "reckless driving." i begged to disagree.

but i talked my way out of it. of course i did. but i was running late.

then some idiot congressman in a ford expedition tried to squeeze in front of me, sounding off his siren at the same time. i let him. but the idiot behind him, a bodyguard i suppose, actually forced me to almost hit those abominable pink rails. i stopped and let him through. it wasn't enough for him though. he kept swerving to block my way.

when i finally got to makati, another idiot was doing something like 35 kph, staying in the middle of the road. i tried to pass him when it was clear, but no, he wouldn't let me. he actually veered left and i had to slam on my brakes. after which he swerved back to the right.

in the building's basement parking lot, this bmw with his lights off cut the corner and used his siren instead of his horn or his lights. good thing i was going slow and i saw him in time.

i am trying to calm down. there are too many idiots on the road.

i really should've stayed in bed. really really.

how come nobody thinks i'm shy?

Arena (known to self and others) independent, sentimental, silly, spontaneous, warm	Blind Spot (known only to others) able, adaptable, caring, cheerful, complex, dependable, energetic, friendly, giving, happy, intelligent, knowledgable, loving, mature, proud, reflective, relaxed, responsive, searching, self-assertive, sensible, trustworthy, wise, witty
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balemtayms na naman

i was bitter in 2003, i was bitter in 2004, and i'm actually surprised i'm not bitter this year. :)

happy valentine's day, all.

have fun. :)

ang lamig meyn

arrived in baguio at 5:45 this morning. it was cold in the bus but i was used to that. i had my trusty jacket and blanket with me. but when i got out of the bus i almost froze. ang lamig talaga meyn.

i felt my nose freezing. not a good feeling.

anyways, when i got to the house, i rang the doorbell. once. twice. thrice. called up all the people with cellphones in the house. rang the doorbell again. sigh. nobody was opening the door.

i got in eventually and i checked the thermometer to see what the temperature in the house was. 16.7 degrees centigrade. with all the windows closed. no wonder i almost froze outside. the wind was even blowing.

i plunked down on the sofa, slept, and waited for daryl to wake up.

so good to be home.

feb. 9, 11:48 pm, 8.2 lbs

daryl thaddeus. welcome to the world. :)

cooking for 1

i am getting used to cooking for one. for the past several years there was always someone to cook for... my sister, my brother in law, my friends who sleep over, my ex...

these days it's just me, and although i can argueably say that sometimes i eat enough for two, generally i just cook for one.

it takes a lot of adjusting. this morning i tried cooking about 3 tablespoons of rice (half a rice cooker cup) for my lunch. i burst out laughing when i looked into the rice cooker. there, at the bottom of the pan, was half an inch of cooked rice. the lot looked lonely. but i was surprised that they actually filled my lunch box. it appealed somewhat to my twisted sense of order--imagine 3 tablespoons of uncooked rice is to one lunch box of cooked rice!

there are rules to follow in cooking for one, i suppose. halve recipes for two, think in terms of teaspoons and tablespoons instead of cups, buy tiny versions of onions and garlic and other vegetables, never ever buy by the kilo, etc. etc. etc.

i have this niggling feeling that soon i'll be feeling bereft eating by myself. but it's not happening just yet. right now i guess i'm just enjoying cooking for one. a party of one.

ilagay niyo naman sa lugar

a few weeks ago i posted something about us filipinos being able to smile in the face of chaos. last saturday this was proven once more.

i finally tuned in to the news to watch the coverage of the stampede at ultra. there was a shot of a correspondent at the arlington funeral homes and behind that oh-so-somber looking reporter, there were about 10 guys waving and smiling at the camera.

smiling in the face of chaos isn't all that bad. but hell, this was at a funeral home! and a lot of people had gotten trampled to death.

i probably would have found this forgiveable had they not been at the funeral home. probably.

ewan. minsan parang nakakahiyang sabihing pinoy ako.

my new career

the image is a little hazy but you get the picture. :)