early this afternoon i received a message from birthday alarm, informing me that my ex, w, will be having his birthday on tuesday. i stared at the message and blinked. several times. in disbelief.
i had completely forgotten.
i never forget birthdays. wait let me rephrase that. i remember birthdays. i remember the birthdays of people- my family, my friends, and yes, the birthdays of my exes.
so when i realized that i had totally forgotten, i just sat and blanked out. it's strange, you know, and a little disturbing.
but then again, after everything i've been through, i suppose it's comforting to know that yes, i can forget.
but since i got reminded already, happy birthday, i guess. :)
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Wednesday, March 04, 2009
Friday, June 13, 2008
on growing up part 2
i seem to have lost some important papers and in my quest for the lost papers, i came across a tretorn box. it looked familiar and when i opened it, i saw a bundle of citibank bills, all unopened. must have arrived while i was out of the country.
under the bundle of bills, there were a lot of notes, written on torn notebook paper, letters and cards. all from the other ex.
i read through about 3 or 4 notes and cards. i have not spoken or heard from him in almost 2 years, mainly because his wife gets into a fit every time he does.
strange that he was the one i was with the longest, and yet he's the one i have no contact with. i have managed to stay friends with my exes, see.
i didn't mind the lack of contact. frankly, i've written him off. i would always just shrug my shoulders and shake the thought of him off, like a half remembered dream.
this morning, however, i found myself missing him. maybe it was because of the letters, or maybe because i suddenly remembered how thoughtful and loving he was. i had forgotten.
i used to think that missing him meant i still felt something "girlfriend-y" and i refused to let myself miss him, or even think about him, unless it was to rant.
when i looked at the box and the contents, i just let it flow over me, and i just let myself miss him. it felt good, i'm surprised to admit. it's been too long since i let myself feel anything for him other than a mild frustration.
well there it is. i miss him and i do hope he is well.
under the bundle of bills, there were a lot of notes, written on torn notebook paper, letters and cards. all from the other ex.
i read through about 3 or 4 notes and cards. i have not spoken or heard from him in almost 2 years, mainly because his wife gets into a fit every time he does.
strange that he was the one i was with the longest, and yet he's the one i have no contact with. i have managed to stay friends with my exes, see.
i didn't mind the lack of contact. frankly, i've written him off. i would always just shrug my shoulders and shake the thought of him off, like a half remembered dream.
this morning, however, i found myself missing him. maybe it was because of the letters, or maybe because i suddenly remembered how thoughtful and loving he was. i had forgotten.
i used to think that missing him meant i still felt something "girlfriend-y" and i refused to let myself miss him, or even think about him, unless it was to rant.
when i looked at the box and the contents, i just let it flow over me, and i just let myself miss him. it felt good, i'm surprised to admit. it's been too long since i let myself feel anything for him other than a mild frustration.
well there it is. i miss him and i do hope he is well.
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