do you ever get that feeling that everything around you is changing while you remain unchanged, locked in a past you would rather not remember?

or that feeling that the events surrounding you are conspiring to make you remember something you would like to forget, or revisit a feeling that you would rather bury?

these feelings keep haunting me now. i try to keep them at bay but sometimes they are too strong, and i'm too tired to fight them.

almost a year. what is? i'm not really sure. a life-defining moment, surely. but i'd be at a loss if you asked me to label it. almost a year.

the saddity of it all.